The plunge

I am going to go on Parnate and a mood stabilizer. It's the only thing I can think of that might give me real results. I'm going to talk to Dr Yasar tomorrow if possible. I'm completely miserable. Total lack of caring, anxiety high, irritability, lack of energy. I'm lost. So I'm stopping citalopram and will discuss stopping mirtazapine too. Then replace the mirtazapine with lamotrigine in the evenings. Add tranylcypromine/Parnate after a week. Abilify, Lamictal, Parnate. ALP. Its going to work. It has to. I am laying in bed wishing I was dead and I just can't do this anymore.